(above my sisters, Hollie, Me, Kris and my Mom) ...................since I lost my very best friend ever!!
My mom and I had the best relationship anyone could ever have. We were so close and always together. I called her everyday just to talk even if it wasn't about anything special. She was so good to me and always there for me. And oh how she loved Ryan and our kids. They meant the world to her and she loved to spoil them. They loved her back as well. It was so fun to watch them together. For those of you who had the wonderful opportunity of getting to know my mom and feel of her sweet spirit consider yourself blessed. Those who didn't get to know or meet her definitely missed out. Loosing her has been the hardest thing I have ever had to go through in my life. But I understand completely why Heavenly Father would want her back......she was so sweet and perfect. Heaven is definitely sweeter now with her there! I am just so thankful she is pain free and happy. It was SO hard to see her suffer the last couple weeks of her life and then to see her pass away right before my eyes was excruciating. Since this experience I now realize just how important it is that families are forever. I cannot even begin to imagine not ever being with my mom again, or any other loved ones for that matter. What a comfort it is to know I will see and be with her again and I honestly can't wait for that day! There has not been one day go by that I haven't thought about her nor will there be. She is so near and dear to my heart and I am privileged to be her daughter. I just hope I can be half the mom she was. There aren't words to express my love and gratitude for her. She sacrificed so much for her family. She suffered and held on as long as she could. Lymphoma ended up taking my mom from this earth but not without a fight. She was so strong. I love you more than words can say or express. You are the best mom and I look forward to that day when we run into each others arms. I miss you so much it hurts. Thankfully you are in heaven with other family and I'm sure so happy. We all miss and love you down here more than you can imagine!!
