One year has past.....

(above my sisters, Hollie, Me, Kris and my Mom)

...................since I lost my very best friend ever!!

My mom and I had the best relationship anyone could ever have. We were so close and always together. I called her everyday just to talk even if it wasn't about anything special. She was so good to me and always there for me. And oh how she loved Ryan and our kids. They meant the world to her and she loved to spoil them. They loved her back as well. It was so fun to watch them together. For those of you who had the wonderful opportunity of getting to know my mom and feel of her sweet spirit consider yourself blessed. Those who didn't get to know or meet her definitely missed out. Loosing her has been the hardest thing I have ever had to go through in my life. But I understand completely why Heavenly Father would want her back......she was so sweet and perfect. Heaven is definitely sweeter now with her there! I am just so thankful she is pain free and happy. It was SO hard to see her suffer the last couple weeks of her life and then to see her pass away right before my eyes was excruciating. Since this experience I now realize just how important it is that families are forever. I cannot even begin to imagine not ever being with my mom again, or any other loved ones for that matter. What a comfort it is to know I will see and be with her again and I honestly can't wait for that day! There has not been one day go by that I haven't thought about her nor will there be. She is so near and dear to my heart and I am privileged to be her daughter. I just hope I can be half the mom she was. There aren't words to express my love and gratitude for her. She sacrificed so much for her family. She suffered and held on as long as she could. Lymphoma ended up taking my mom from this earth but not without a fight. She was so strong. I love you more than words can say or express. You are the best mom and I look forward to that day when we run into each others arms. I miss you so much it hurts. Thankfully you are in heaven with other family and I'm sure so happy. We all miss and love you down here more than you can imagine!!

2 Months in a Nutshell.

I took my kids to my sisters house because she has 11 baby ducks. My kids had so much fun chasing and holding them. The yellow one that Dawson is holding above was the most popular due to its hair-do!! It has the cutest fuzz ball head!

We took our little family to Disneyland in May. Not only was it their first time but mine as well. They had a lot of fun. Chandler and Dawson both got picked to go on stage and fight "The Dark Side." Dawson got too scared and ended up not fighting Darth Vader but Chandler was brave and fought him.

We celebrated Layla's first birthday in California on the beach!! Can't believe my baby is one!

Me, the birthday girl Layla and my babe!

Ryan and Layla on the beach.

The fam at Disneyland!

My boys at the beach for the first time. They LOVED it! Ry buried them in the sand. Chandler kept telling me the entire week that he wanted to move to Cali because of the beach and Disneyland. He said he was going to move there when he is 16.........funny!!

Chandler celebrated his 7th birthday at "The Little Gym." Why do they grow up so fast?? He had a lot of fun!

It's True.........

that many of you may not know but can definitely believe that Ryan and I are up and moving one last time (I hope)!! I know, I know we can not stay in one place to long it seems. So we are off to the hot, sunny, desert of Arizona. We hope to sell our home quickly and move before school starts mid August. So that is the latest and greatest at our house. Let me tell you how excited I am to pack up my house again. This will be our 5th, yes I said 5th move in nine short years of marriage!!! If I would have known that I would have left everything boxed up until now. So there you have it..........AZ here we come!!

All Smiles!!

Layla and her big brother Dawson. He never
leaves her side and always wants to be in the
picture with her. He loves her soooooo much!


Big Smiles!!

Just cheesing for the camera!

Funny Dawson.....

So the other day Dawson and I were in the car and the song by Kenny Chesney came on,"Everybody wants to go to heaven, but nobody wants to go now." So of course I am singing it at the top of my lungs and Dawson joins in with me on the chorus. Well when the song was over he said, "Mom, but I don't want to go to heaven!"
I said, "Well where do you want to go then?"
He said, "Arizona!"
I said, "Well we can go to Arizona but someday we will all go to heaven."
He said, "But I will be scared, cause I don't want to go up to the clouds. It is too high and I will have to hold your hand."
I said, " I'll hold your hand but it won't be scary. Grandma, Papa and Jesus are in heaven and can't wait to see us!"
It was sooooo cute!! Kids are so innocent and honest, I love what they say!

Catching up........

Here is me and my Layla the middle of March! She is 9 and a half months old. She is learning to pull herself up to things, army crawls great, got a top tooth (the one left of her two front teeth). She loves to play with her brothers and never lacks for attention. She laughs when her brothers dance around for her. She rolls her wrists and ankles constantly when she eats and if you are talking to her. She has such a fun personality!!

Here is my sexy husband celebrating his birthday in March! He is not going to be happy with me for posting this picture.......it is like pulling teeth to get him to let me take a picture of him! Needless to say that is why there aren't a whole lot of him on my blog. I love you babe!!!

So here are my cute boys Chandler and Dawson up at Brighton having ski lessons. They took them every Saturday for 5 weeks. Chandler LOVED it and Dawson was a little tired of it after 3 lessons, but they both finished and want to go back. They keep saying, "Mom, I will teach you to ski!!" I've never been but think I will give it a try now that we can go as a family! (minus Layla)

One Word Tag

1. Your cell phone is: wonderful
2. Your significant other is: sleeping
3. Your hair: needs help
4. Your mother: unforgettable
5. Your father: brave
6. Your favorite thing: family
7. Your dream last night: forgotten
8. Your dream goal: skinny
9. Your favorite room: Layla's
10. Your hobby: shopping
11. Your fear: dieing
12. Where you want to be in 6 years: Arizona
13. Where you were last night: bowling
14. What you're not: tan
15. One of your wish list items: vacation
16. Where you grew up: Utah
17. Last thing you ate: graham cracker
18. What you wearing: make-up
19. Your T.V: off
20. Your pet: shadow
21. Your computer: new
22. Your mood: calm
23. Missing someone: everyday
24. Your car: reliable
25. Something you're not wearing: shoes
26. Favorite stone: diamond
27. Your summer: hot
28. Love someone: always
29. Your favorite color: pink
30. Last time you laughed: last night
31. Last time you cried: today

I tag: Annie, Jada, Shay, and Jayne.